Self-care, capybara, and gaming

We forget to ask ourselves, are we doing self-care most efficiently? Are we just postponing what is really needed because of responsibilities or fear of failure?

As a therapist, it felt like being a capybara and trying to be chilled and calm for my clients, but that’s not the whole of me. I need some me-time, to step away from being a capybara and really do what I really want to do - swimming and playing computer games.

After I finally got back to playing computer games yesterday, it felt like a clog that’s been unstuck. In my previous attempts at a particular game mission, it was so frustrating for me as I just felt there was no way I could beat it. I’ve tried restarting, using different approaches, but they all didn’t work. I was so stuck with it that I had to look for tutorials and tips online, and I’ve been thinking about it, it was at the back of my mind, perhaps brewing a sense of failure and frustration that coincided with what was happening in other parts of my life.

But I now know that, eventually, I have learned to resolve problems, and I have finally given myself time to engage with it. It felt so liberating after being able to make breakthroughs and I felt more motivated to do all other things.